As I mentioned in a recent newsletter, I am officially OVER the 2025 growing season. My garden is parched and defeated. And so am I.

Uneasy with my discord I decided to sort through musings that I’ve recorded over the years. I keep everything, even though I don’t necessarily know where I stashed my notes, an essay, or a finished article. Past me wisely sensed that my future self might need a pep me up (or talking down) when it comes to navigating late season challenges. Leaf spot on the tomatoes: check. Sad dahlias covered in powdery mildew: indeed, but somehow it seems worse this year.

katsura tree

My katsura trees in a more forgiving year.

I mourn years like this one when the katsura trees drop crisp leaves forgoing their typical color shifts and the way and I miss the way they fill the front garden with the fragrance of burnt sugar. I’m hoping there’s still time, I look forward to this marker every year.

Clearly, I’m not the only gardener burnt out on attending to the needs of my plot. Yet this year’s bout feels especially personal. Like, if this were another type of relationship, we might be contacting an attorney.

grasses & perennials in the garden

Thankfully, parts of my garden are resilient and independent.

The Season of my Discontent

None of my seasonal discontent is new, nor is it remarkably dire, especially considering political and social events unraveling around the world. It feels a bit naïve and indulgent to fuss over my garden when almost everything in the natural world is tilting off kilter. Drought. Heat waves. Smoke from wildfires. Flooding. My garden, and yours, are on the front line of escalating climate chaos. It’s damn alarming.

white cosmos

Cosmos living their best life in September.

In other, more energetic seasons, I willingly, even lovingly, care for my plot; support balance, care for the soil, promote diversity. Looking around the garden the cosmos are beefing up— I always forget about this late season rally, it always comes as a delightful surprise. Tomatoes are ripening despite what appears to be septoria leaf spot and the green fruit on the everbearing raspberries is beginning to blush in a generous reprise of the midsummer harvest. I would not be enjoying these harvests had I not planted and previously nurtured these plants.  

colchicum

Colchicum autumnale emerging through Carex testacea.

Elsewhere in the garden and with zero input from me, bubblegum pink colchicum are poking their noses through bronze sedges, and delicate soft pink cyclamen blossoms muscle up between gravel and weary perennials in unlikely places. This quixotic placement is due to a fascinating, mutually beneficial relationship between these fall blooming perennials and ants.

Dancing Ants & Pink in the Fall Garden

pink cyclamen

Fall blooming Cyclamen hederifolium.

Myrmecochory, loosely translated from ancient Greek means “choreography of ants.” In early summer, just as the cyclamen are going dormant, dancing ants (a delightful image) harvest plump seeds and carry the fruit back to their underground nest where the seed coating provides nutritious fats and protein for the colony. It’s a winning symbiotic waltz: the ants get fed while the seed of the cyclamen is essentially planted at some distance from the parent plant, setting the stage for diverse and resilient future generations. 

Once again, I’m grateful to past me for including these plants that gentle me through late season ennui.

Pink is a fine prescription for treating autumn malaise. Like coarse sea salt on an artisanal chocolate caramel, pink in the fall garden is a stroke of brilliance on an already good thing. In beds filled with tawny shades of olive, orange, and gold, blushing blossoms energize this weary gardener and help me over these last gasping days of summer.

Experience has taught me that the same garden and natural processes that are defeating me today will, with time, lift me up and spark anticipation as I plan and plant for the future. Spring blooming bulbs have been ordered and I’m looking forward to a delicious color palette of tulips for next year’s bouquets. I’m waiting for the weather to cooperate before I tackle moving a few plants and dividing the PCH irises that I meant to get to last year but never did. Time on my knees in the fall garden is golden in all sorts of ways.